Stress is Such a STress of life !!

It was March 2012 and my 12th board exams were going on !!

Man !! what a horror days those were !! 

Well yes, those days were not any less than HORROR for me.. You may call it Exam Fear..

The fear of not scoring good in my LIFE exam, i.e., in 12th board Exam..This was the FIRST time in my life that i was so much tensed about my exam..I'd always taken my studies in a linear way. I never studied under PRESSURE. but for the very first time, there was a PRESSURE on me, of not letting down my parents expectation at any cost.

It was my physics exam, M weakest at physics because i don't have interest in it. Studying physics has always been a challenge for me.

I'd not studied physics for the whole year but these were the final exams and now it was the time to study. I picked up the book and obviously, it was like a STRANGER to me. 

kahan se aai h, kya h kuch ni pta :D

One thing more, I never crammed anything in life. Either i don't study or I study with full understanding.

But again, it was the first time, I was trying to CRAM because it was physics , out of my Scope!! OMG !! How People do it!!  FAILED !!

Then i decided , i won't cram, instead , i'll do  less topics but with full understanding. I'd thought that ,let's just drop the idea of scoring Good in physics, it'll only yield me more stress. I decided to study just to get PASSING MARKS. 

Hmm...That's a good idea.. I was feeling lighter now.!!

But then again, one day during the preparation holidays before physics exam, my friend called me regarding exam, to ask OBVIOUS questions ,"how much have you done?" and all , i told a little more than i'd done out of shame and the stress started building again when she told the amount of syllabus she had covered.

I was like, Would passing be enough ??

It would drop down my percentage !!

I couldn't study properly that night and i wrote this poem which i call :

Yes.....You Gonna Do it !!

Going through an unusual Stress These days 
What will be my future ,what it's gonna pay 
Where will i Stand ?? 
What will be in my hand ?? 
 
 
A few years ago, thought of a lot of dreams 
Sachi,you're gonna do it,they always screamed.. 
AS years passed,confidence Shattered 
Tried to build again but never gathered.. 
 
 
Sometimes feel like crying 
sometimes feel like dying 
whatever were the emotions 
Always thought,no,there's still a hope of Flying.... 
 

And i would like to share one thing more, that i scored unexpectedly good in physics, i got 71 out marks out of 100. It was really a very good score for me IN physics !!!!! Wow!!

And yes, let me clear one more thing, CRAMMING doesn't lead to anything, AT last, What will Work out is UNDERSTANDING.  Do less, but whatever you do, Do it with UNDERSTANDING !!